I have spent several years learning about illness, learning about depression. Learning about the characteristics of depression, and what I experience that many others experience, and what I experience that isn't quite so typical of others.
One of the characteristics that I have found that many people with depression expereince, is that they are hyper sensitive. Hyper sensitive to everything that the world has to offer. We seem to dabble in multiple passions: children wronged, elderly wronged, work issues, political issues to name a few. We are hyper sensative about our family, about our God, and about life in general.
Does anyone else feel this way? I often felt like there was always a fire to put out, and if there wasn't something that was personally affecting such as the death of our son, or our youngest son being diagnosed with developmental delays. I would create fires to extinguish, local community issues, work issues. It was exhausting to always have my body in a hyper sensative mode. Somehow I thrived on this.
It amazes me the amount of time that was wasted feeling like I was on high alert for the next issue. When I could have better spent my time, playing with my children, or enjoying my husband, or finding something to laugh about.
This level of hyper sensitivity, though may have started as part of the depression, or maybe a personality characteristics that potentially made me vulnerable to the illness of depression. I continue to be a hyper sensitive person, but now I try to be selective with how I invest my energies.
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